A month before entering high school, that was what my new father said to me. His words were as neat as his appearance. We had been living together for just a month. We didn’t even have time to get close, so the awkwardness was as tall and large as the buildings in Seoul.
I think he said to tell him if I ever changed my mind. Anytime, whenever. I remember seeing the image of a generous adult.
“I’ll give you a business card first. My hands are shaking because I’m so eager.”
And then, in April of that year. Two months after starting high school life in Seoul, I had the opportunity to earn money.
I wasn’t interested in acting, I just wanted to make money. So out of the business cards I received every other day, I teamed up with the company where the most famous actor at the time was. I was lucky. Six months later, I was able to earn money as I wished.
The reply to my question, “Hyung, did I make some income?” from Bong Ki Hyung is unforgettable. “Yes, enough to last a lifetime.” What did he say? “From now on, you don’t have to worry about the price of anything.” After that, the money kept coming in, and it was even more.
Since there was no long period of practice, my settlements came quickly. About a year after my debut, I was able to buy my own house and become independent at the age of 18. No one strongly held me back when I said I would move out and live separately.
Of course, every two weeks after my independence, side dishes were sent through my brother. Occasionally, when I emptied a few more sticks of a side dish that suited my taste, next time, that side dish came in a slightly larger container.
Was the hand making it trembling, or the sesame sprinkled especially generously? A few dawn moments, staring blankly at the tiny grains, filling a belly that wasn’t particularly hungry.
Once a season, a message would also come from my stepfather. [Ji Ho, always take care of your health. I’m always cheering for you.] [Yes, thank you.]
To others, we might seem like an indifferent family, but I didn’t necessarily think so. Although it wasn’t filled with love, there was a voluntary sense of responsibility between us. I believe that sense of responsibility is also a form of love.
“Cut! Ji Ho, you are too emotionless. Who says ‘I love you’ like that?”
Ah, it was then that I realized. I’ve never said ‘I love you’ before.
It was winter then, and I was grateful I was wearing long sleeves. When I looked at the face of the other actor and said ‘I love you’, goosebumps rose on my arm. Could I say those words to someone, words I’ve never said even to the person I loved the most?
How much do I have to love to be able to say it?
“I really love you, Ji Ho. Please date me.”
So I’m sorry, but every time I heard those words over and over, I didn’t feel like or dislike, just curiosity. And it was amazing. How could they say they loved me when they knew so little about me. Was it just me who found those words difficult?
There were many girls around who looked like dolls, and several faces caught my attention, but it always ended up like that. They confessed their love quickly, just when I was about to observe a little, and then I’d be taken aback and grow cold.
“Why do you love me?” “Because you’re handsome.” “……I see.”
“Now, this question is overwhelmingly common. Let’s get straight to it! What is Ji Ho’s ideal type?”
“A woman who… makes me want to say ‘I love you.'”
“Yes. Specifically, that woman! That’s your ideal type, right?”
I think it was around then that I learned to give the answer they wanted, rather than an honest answer.
When I couldn’t find a suitable answer and was stalling, my eyes met with Hyung’s outside the camera. A large and clear mouth shape that offset the long distance. “Just say anything.” These four words still make me laugh when I think about it.
I really casually, but I also said an answer that seemed like it would never be a lie in four words. “A pretty woman.”
After that, the rumor that “An Ji Ho doesn’t even look at anyone but pretty women” which was embellished, was surprisingly thankful. Because when confessions decrease, rejections can decrease as well.
“I bragged to my friends that my brother is An Ji Ho!”
Kids really grow up fast. Se Byul, who was nine years younger than me, was growing taller every time I saw her.
A few years ago, she gave me a bundle of paper and asked for an autograph. She said it was for her friends. It must have been difficult for Se Byul to call me brother, as we have different last names, but she even bragged that I was her brother.
While saying “our brother”, she was so shy looking at someone else’s brother. Every time our eyes met, her face turned bright red.
“I love the piano, but learning seems too much….”
The sheet music on Se Byul’s desk was all worn at the corners. I silently nodded and looked for a piano the next day. However, the room seemed a bit too small for a piano, so I ended up buying a house as well.
To the two who shivered, saying they would never accept it, I cut off any further argument by saying, “I just want to see Se Byul playing the piano when I occasionally visit home.” There was a room for me in that house, but sleep didn’t come easily as I only visited once or twice a year.
Se Byul played the piano better than I expected. That’s why I bought her a grand piano last year, and the look on the child’s face that day when she saw the piano really sparkled. Like someone who had discovered a desperately sought treasure.
I think the next time I saw a similar expression was from Hye Yoon.
“Wow, you’re going on a trip? That’s great!”
It was then, when I was talking about my upcoming rest, not about the piano or other expensive items. It was as if that was a treasure to her.
“The moment we discovered each other’s existence.”
“……”
“That’s when we fell in love.”
I, who defined love with such simple words, knew little about love, while Hye Yoon, who thought deeply, lived with more love than anyone else. It’s still difficult, but at least now the love I know involves protecting the other person and keeping them from trembling in anxiety.
Something like the smile my dad showed me until the moment he closed his eyes.
And one day. If a moment comes when I can’t bear not to say “I love you”, I hope the person smiling brightly in front of me then is Hye Yoon.
Greed grows bigger and faster than expected.
Into the dark scenery outside the window, old stories and deep thoughts whizzed by as if tearing through. Ji Ho’s hand, about to turn off the screen, hesitated for a moment. And then he moved his fingers again. Without hesitation.
Under the message sent a while ago, a new balloonshaped icon in yellow was created.
[Feel free to contact me anytime, even if it’s not important. (1:40 AM)]It was a show of love from Ji Ho to his younger sister, Se Byul.
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Male lead is reincarnated to save his wife
I’ve also read this one twice already. The female lead is kinda soft and gets embarrassed easily—not really my type, but the plot is definitely worth reading. Hurry up and read it, y’all!
Intro
When Shen Yuan encountered Su Jin again in his previous life, she had already become the Prime Minister of the current dynasty. As for him, the former top young master of the capital, he had long since fallen into the abyss, becoming a singer on a pleasure boat.
After a song ended, he was redeemed and sent to the Su Residence.
Su Jin respected and cherished him, gave him a roof over his head, and bestowed him with warmth. Shen Yuan fell deeper and deeper, but before he could express his feelings, Su Jin passed away.
Shen Yuan died to follow her in death, but instead, he returned to when he was fifteen years old.
At that time, he was not yet engaged, and Su Jin was just a poor scholar.
Shen Yuan gritted his teeth, casting aside all his pride, and thought of ways to coax and entice her every day.
The colder and more indifferent Su Jin was towards him, the more proactive Shen Yuan became.
He was not afraid of being mocked by the world, only wanting to marry his Wife-master early, to hold her hand and never let go for a lifetime.
[Note: This story will not specifically point out the male lead’s reincarnation time point; it’s all in the details. Whenever you feel that the male lead is acting strangely, he has most likely been reincarnated.]
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