“Does this feeling I’ve thought of align with the truth?”
To answer ‘yes’ seemed to carry quite a significant implication. If I were to say yes, it would imply that I had harbored Haru in my heart continuously until eight years ago, when I made the film.
“…Yes, that’s right. Hiroshi, the protagonist in the movie, probably had such feelings.”
I was intentionally trying to redirect the thoughts about the messages and intentions I had embedded in the movie back to the protagonist. However, Jihun caught the end of that statement.
“Director, it seems like you’re deliberately keeping your words short. Not only me, but the audience who watched the director’s movies will have some idea. The director’s interview about first love and Hiroshi’s emotions oddly match.”
An uncomfortable feeling flashed through. It wasn’t because of what Jihun had just said to me. It was the sight of him subtly preventing my attempt to put aside the topic that Hyunsoo had brought up.
He clearly wanted to keep dragging this topic along.
Why? Why would actor Yu Jihun be interested in the fact that I couldn’t forget my first love for a very long time?
But without allowing this question to linger for long, Hyunsoo seized the end of the conversation.
“Well then, Director. If your feelings were like that even during the time you made that movie, I’m really curious. Considering your age now, did you not have a second love during that time? Was your first love the only love in the director’s life?”
The question itself harbored the entire intention. In other words, I was well aware that it was a question thrown out of pure curiosity.
But the answer could be interpreted differently depending on the listener. From a while ago, Jihun, who had been silently observing me without revealing his inner thoughts, seemed to have an opportunity to gauge me.
Or perhaps, if it really wasn’t like that. Could it be that I’m just overreacting, as Haru suggested? Maybe it’s just pure curiosity as an actor, and nothing more.
“Director.”
“…Yes?”
“It doesn’t seem like my question requires such careful consideration for an answer. Please tell me. Did you have a second love?”
“…….”
“You probably didn’t. Isn’t that right, Director?”
Jihun intercepted Hyunsoo’s words. In Jihun’s voice, seeking my agreement, there was certainty. It seemed like he had been speculating about Haru and my relationship since we first met by the sea. However,
“During the final interview last time, you mentioned it. Your first love was the only love in your life.”
Unexpected words came out.
Ah, did I say that back then? Even if I did, I was probably in a state where I couldn’t properly control my emotions.
“Listening to what Writer Kim said, one thing I’m curious about has come to mind.”
In succession, without resolving the thoughts that came to mind due to Jihun’s consecutive remarks, I had to listen carefully to what Jihun was about to say.
“Well then, Director, Haru, your first and only love, met this writer exactly nine years later. How did you feel? Perhaps…”
Even in the moment when I carefully chose my words and hesitated, Jihun stared at me, as if he wouldn’t miss even the slightest change in my expression.
“Director, did you want to love again? Haru, I mean.”
I hesitated for a moment. Even in my eyes that were looking at him, there might have been subtle ripples.
Hastily, I gathered my emotions and tried to maintain a calm façade. However, Jihun must have seen that momentary hesitation. He had been watching me throughout the entire questioning; his gaze never left me.
Regardless of the actual truth, I should answer that it was all in the past. I didn’t want to say it like that. The silence at this moment is good for stirring up the other person’s suspicions; I was well aware of that fact.
Then, at that moment, there was a man who found it hard to endure even such a brief silence.
“Mr. Jihun, asking if you wanted to love again right after meeting is like a real movie. Mr. Jihun may not know, but even after meeting Director Kim, this writer has consistently had second, third, and fourth loves. So, the first love has been pushed back quite a bit…”
“Hyunsoo, that’s enough.”
Haru’s words cut off Hyunsoo’s chatter at Haru’s urging. My entire focus, which had been contemplating various thoughts, suddenly shifted to Haru. I spilled words in front of Haru as if speaking to myself.
“Oh, except me, three times then.”
“Ah… that’s a story that needs some explanation.”
“I can’t say it’s not true by the look on your face. Even though you may not know, Director Kim, this writer has had steady relationships enough to say that the importance of the first love diminishes as you go further, suggesting that the ones at the back are closer to real love…”
At first, it seemed like a joke, but as I spoke, I began to feel a bit uncomfortable. It wasn’t that I was angry. Even though the thought that it could happen crossed my mind, even though I knew everything, it felt unsettling.
Male lead is reincarnated to save his wife
I’ve also read this one twice already. The female lead is kinda soft and gets embarrassed easily—not really my type, but the plot is definitely worth reading. Hurry up and read it, y’all!
Intro
When Shen Yuan encountered Su Jin again in his previous life, she had already become the Prime Minister of the current dynasty. As for him, the former top young master of the capital, he had long since fallen into the abyss, becoming a singer on a pleasure boat.
After a song ended, he was redeemed and sent to the Su Residence.
Su Jin respected and cherished him, gave him a roof over his head, and bestowed him with warmth. Shen Yuan fell deeper and deeper, but before he could express his feelings, Su Jin passed away.
Shen Yuan died to follow her in death, but instead, he returned to when he was fifteen years old.
At that time, he was not yet engaged, and Su Jin was just a poor scholar.
Shen Yuan gritted his teeth, casting aside all his pride, and thought of ways to coax and entice her every day.
The colder and more indifferent Su Jin was towards him, the more proactive Shen Yuan became.
He was not afraid of being mocked by the world, only wanting to marry his Wife-master early, to hold her hand and never let go for a lifetime.
[Note: This story will not specifically point out the male lead’s reincarnation time point; it’s all in the details. Whenever you feel that the male lead is acting strangely, he has most likely been reincarnated.]
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