That’s how Jun concluded the final interview, without asking a single question to Jihoon and Minseo.
And as soon as the meeting room door closed, tears streamed down Jun’s cheek in a streak.
“Oh, it’s cold.”
Lying sideways with his face on the desk, he suddenly felt a chill to the point that one side of his cheek became numb. Reflexively, he lifted his head in the direction where a large draft had settled. Jung-eun was holding a canned coffee, grinning.
“It’s a person, not a desk. I thought it was a human-shaped desk since it looked like that the whole time.”
“…Uh, yeah, a desk. I didn’t know. So just leave me alone.”
In response to Jung-eun’s playful remark, I replied with an unnecessarily cold tone, then leaned back as I did a little while ago. However, without even allowing that brief gap, I shivered and stood up again, thanks to Jung-eun waving the can in the same position.
“Oh, Seo Jung-eun. Why are you like this, seriously…”
“I told you I was checking whether you were a desk or a person.”
Even if I added more words here, it seemed that only desk and person topics would come up. So, I only stuck out my lips, looking at Jung-eun. It was quite apparent that it was a person, as if timidly protesting.
“Now, do an eye steam with this, after that, drink it.”
The canned coffee that had given a chill to my cheek was placed on the desk.
“Because you seemed so hurt today, I wondered if I said something unnecessary. Still, I thought I had to say it at least once, but I was pondering whether I brought up this topic at work for no reason, and I was worried about it alone.”
After taking a sip of her coffee, Jung-eun added again.
“Kim Joon, we have never actually seen that person’s pain. I’m like that too, Haru, you are also just vaguely guessing, right?”
“…”
“This time, thanks to Jihoon and Minseo, I got a glimpse of the pain I had only vaguely guessed at. Still, I understand one thing.”
I swallowed a dry spit quietly.
“As deep as that person’s love for you, when you left him. Or when you tried to leave, the wound in that person’s heart is as deep as that. It happens so easily, really.”
“…”
“But honestly, it’s a bit surprising. For someone, first love can have that much meaning. No, maybe it can be the origin of all emotions, that kind of thought.”
It wasn’t a story to be heard after drinking a cup of coffee, not even alcohol. I breathed out the stifled breath, stirring the chest. I had to leave at least a small space in my heart. Just a small gap for breathing.
Of course, the emotions wouldn’t be ventilated by the small stream of wind coming from the lips.
“That day, after hearing everything you said at the sushi restaurant, that person never openly admitted that he was having a hard time.”
“Yeah. That’s true…”
“Now, really, I feel sorry for that person. It seems like he’s trying to hide everything he’s been through and trying to comfort himself alone.”
It was always like that. Jun couldn’t stand even the moment when sadness began to seep into a very small area of my face and would inevitably pull me into my broad chest.
He silently accepted my chest, drenched with tears. Like a person hoping that the pain I had just begun to embrace would pour down onto me without leaving a space in my chest.
As if he couldn’t tolerate even a small scratch on my chest, he made that face.
While doing so, any emotion or memory that could hurt me, he kept inside me. Ironically, the pain that had taken root in his heart for nine years, I had never been able to properly see even once.
As if there was no pain in his chest, the cheeky face that had already passed the pain whispered to me, who was in front of him, to look at me and my love. In that way, in front of him pretending to be nonchalant, I also wanted to be so nonchalant.
I wanted to turn a blind eye to the nine years that had passed between us.
“So, what I mean is…”
“Uh?”
“I was wondering if it’s okay for you to bring up the subject first once in a while. On the day you broke up, did you hurt a lot? I’m sorry I couldn’t consider it in advance. Even that much will make him feel a lot better. For a day, it might be just a band-aid, at least for him.”
“…Right.”
No, that’s what I should do. I should approach Jun first, even though it’s too late, especially to Jun, who has never shown any resentment toward me. Rather, to Jun, who has been busy hiding my pain in a place my gaze couldn’t reach.
Just once, I should be the first one. Although it’s too late, this time, I should approach Jun first.
The wounds I left on Jun, if only I could. If I could, I wish I could gently comfort him.
The way up to my house felt long. The steps, heavier as the weight of my thoughts, stretched out the distance to my house.
I felt the sensation of my feet touching the ground. The sound of footsteps that resembled the sound of taking off feet echoed on the ground. Listening to that heavy sound, I thought about the meaning of walking through Jun’s pain.
The meaning of walking a path I have never properly walked before.
The heart of Jun, who had to walk that path endlessly without anyone taking care of his pain.
Was the distance to the main entrance always this long? I looked down at the tips of my toes that had reached the front of the entrance without meaning. I played with the fragment of thought I had just held in my hand. Like that, quietly, I stood on top of the heavy silence. That’s when it happened.
“Yi Haru.”
Jun’s voice, which should be in Japan right now, penetrated my ears. My heart started to beat rapidly.
Male lead is a clingy little husband
One-line summary: The male lead is initially an arrogant, noble, love-deprived brat, later a cute, clingy, scheming little jealous one.
Introduction:
One day, Lu Yuner’s soul transmigrates into a female-dominant world. She enters the Imperial Academy and takes up the position of a doctoral instructor, teaching classes and grading schoolwork.
One day, she encounters the young prince Su Qingwan secretly skipping class from the male academy.
As a result, Su Qingwan is punished.
From then on, Su Qingwan sees Lu Yuner as a “thorn in his side”.
But before long, this “thorn” becomes the person he cherishes most, and he goes to great lengths to win Lu Yuner’s affection.
Mini scene 1:
One day, the sun is high in the sky but Su Qingwan still hasn’t gotten up for class.
Servant Xiaoyuan: “Young prince, it’s time for class. You’ll be late otherwise.”
Su Qingwan says arrogantly: “I’m not going. I am the esteemed prince, my status is so noble, why should I suffer this hardship? Besides, isn’t learning all this just to please women? Hmph, they’re not worthy!”
Mini scene 2:
After Su Qingwan falls for someone, he completely changes. He no longer skips class and diligently learns how to be a good husband and father. But he discovers that Sister Yuner is always surrounded by admirers.
Drunk and overcome with jealousy one day, he clings to Lu Yuner, crying beautifully like a pear blossom in the rain.
Su Qingwan: “Qingwan likes Sister Yuner.”
Lu Yuner: “Young prince, you’re drunk.”
Su Qingwan: “Qingwan isn’t drunk. Qingwan likes Sister Yuner, likes you so much, likes you to bits…” Before he can finish, Lu Yuner’s eyes flash with emotion and she leans in closer.
[Reading Guide]
1. The female lead is gentle, gracious, humble and polite but not weak. The male lead is initially an arrogant, noble, love-deprived brat, later a cute, clingy, scheming little jealous one.
2. 1v1, a bit torturous in the beginning but definitely sweet later on.
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