No, perhaps from the moment I heard Haru is considering breaking up with me, every word that passes through me might have felt unreal.
“I also agreed to meet Haru separately after work to hear the details. Probably before that, Haru will send a message to the director, as I mentioned, suggesting to break up or something like that. So, just letting you know.”
In the surreal sensation, I stared quietly at Seo Jeong-eun’s face.
“I thought it might be a good idea if Director could secretly sit next to us at that time and listen to the conversation. I will ask Haru why he is trying to break up, what he thinks it means for the director, etc. After that, you can either break up or turn Haru’s heart freely.”
Of course, there was nothing to hesitate about.
“…Yes. Thank you. Sincerely.”
Throughout my explanation of what happened, Haru’s wide-open mouth never closed. Especially during the part where Seo Jeong-eun told me that Haru seems to be preparing for a breakup alone, I was so anxious as I watched, fearing that he might burst into tears when he continued speaking.
“So, that’s how things turned out…”
There was never an intense desire to blame Haru. Still, considering the objective responsibility of the situation, Haru was the one who had to bear it, so Haru couldn’t speak.
Avoid my gaze. I can’t force a reluctant child to look at me, so only my insides are burning.
Then, you, who seemed uncomfortable sitting next to me, asked me in a small voice.
“So, where did you hear from?”
“What?”
“Earlier, you said you heard everything at the restaurant.”
“Ah…”
Ha… So, you eventually wanted to know that. How much I heard. How far you can continue the lies. Because you have to leave for me. Because you believe in that firmly.
It was indeed a laughable thought. However, yes, if it’s Haru. If it’s you, who is warm like that, there might be no other choice but to consider it the best.
I felt stifled in my chest. Haru clenched both fists and was fidgeting uneasily. I looked away from Haru’s face to Seo Jeong-eun, who was sitting next to me, and said,
“So, where did I hear it from… Probably from ‘Salmon Rice Bowl and Mini Udon, please,’ right?”
Suddenly, Haru turned his head quickly and began to look at me with a resentful gaze. His eyebrows were deeply furrowed, and his lips were pursed, struggling to spit out complicated thoughts. His eyes were filled with dissatisfaction and resentment.
“Well, that’s right. When you entered the restaurant, you followed me and sat down.”
“Kim Jun, really. You’re so… Then you’ve heard everything from the beginning to the end.”
“…….”
He didn’t explicitly point out the fact. He just gazed steadily at Haru’s face.
“Well, then you won’t believe me now.”
“What are you talking about?”
“You know. That thing…”
“What?”
“The message I sent today…”
“Ah…”
Haru, in front of me, couldn’t even bring up the words written in the message I sent.
Although there was no intention to break up, if Haru couldn’t speak about it in this way, there was no need for it. Haru, who struggled to utter the words suggesting a breakup, couldn’t genuinely want to break up.
Haru is now, at the moment of uttering those words in front of me, probably afraid that it might become a reality.
“Then, do you expect me to believe all the lies you told me?”
“…….”
“There are things we need to clear up. If you wanted to break up with me because you thought I was giving up my career as a movie director for you, or that you were blocking my way for those reasons, stop it. I never did any of that.”
Haru’s eyes shook as he looked at me.
“Think about it. If I were going to give up my career that I’ve built up until now, why would I be running around everywhere while I’m in Korea? What reason would there be? I wouldn’t do it anyway, being a director.”
Even so, looking at the slight nodding of Haru’s head now, it seemed that other thoughts were beginning to surface.
“And why would I connect my modest wish to live in Korea with my loved one to giving up all the career I’ve painstakingly built up? Yes, if someone said to me, ‘Do you want to be a movie director or be Haru’s lover, choose one,’ I wouldn’t hesitate. Of course, I would choose to be Haru’s lover. But I’m not talking about that now.”
Now not only Haru’s eyes but also his face and ears were tinged with red. I couldn’t watch anymore.
I gently grabbed Haru’s shoulders and pulled him into my chest. Fortunately, Haru didn’t resist and let me guide him into my arms.
“I told you. I can’t do without you now. This heart only seeks you. So please, don’t have such foolish thoughts. Never again. Absolutely never again.”
As if his shoulders were trembling a little, Haru soon let out a sob.
How frightening and fearful it must have been for him alone. How on earth did he try to bear that pain on his own? Ha, it’s driving me crazy. My heart felt like it was tearing apart.
When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem
This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
Synopsis:
“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”
Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.
Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.
While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…
Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.
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