You said that I became the priority in your life, but it was burdensome for the reality of me becoming the one pulling down your long-cherished dream. Your generous love gave me the assurance that it’s right for me to be by your side, but I still remember your bright smile as you laughed like you had the whole world whenever you were shooting a movie.
Your words about wanting to live a lifetime just making movies and the expression you had when saying those words, soaked in the happiness, even.
As our budding love, which had just started again, grew, the thought that it might be right to protect the dream you’ve been holding onto for a long time rather than our love gradually expanded within me.
As the person who makes you say, ‘Should I not go,’ the one who narrows your world down to me beside you, I became unsure if it’s right to hold that position.
Perhaps you didn’t know that you might be overrating your first love. Maybe you didn’t know that due to the long years you believed you were abandoned, you were clinging to this not-so-great love.
So, perhaps my love is actually becoming poison to you… I really didn’t know if that was the case.
That’s why. The reason Jun started thinking about giving up his career at the most crucial moment in his life. Everything became clear with just my three-letter name.
The answer to the question I just asked roughly began to come into focus. My eyes were stinging.
“I’m really sorry to say this. However, as someone who has been watching you closely from the time you made independent films, I couldn’t just stand by for a long time.”
“…….,”
“Director, you’ve just had one successful work. Phrases like ‘rising rookie,’ ‘controversial work,’ and ‘winner of the scenario director award at the Japanese Film Festival’ will soon be removed. The next project is more important than anything. There are also works being discussed with renowned directors from the UK and the US. It’s really the timing to build a solid career.”
“…….,”
“So, there’s no reason for you to settle down in Korea as long as Director has Haru in your life. At least for the film director Kim Jun.”
I couldn’t find acceptance. It was the right thing to say. Jun’s dream. The position Jun was going to take. I was the one holding Jun’s ankle as he climbed that steep staircase.
That’s right. At least for film director Kim Jun, I was meaningless.
“To Director, what first love and Haru mean, and how significant they are, is not unknown. However, love can be postponed for a while, but Director’s dream, the position you’ve worked so hard to reach until now, can’t be obtained just because you want it or when it’s not the right time. Moreover, you know Director’s personality well. Unless Haru steps forward, Director will never change his mind.”
She cleverly divided me into two, distinguishing between boyfriend Kim Jun and film director Kim Jun, subtly pressuring me. Inserting absurd statements like, “Isn’t love something that can be postponed for a while?” and expressionlessly uttering painful words like, “Love is trivial compared to dreams.”
Her tone was subtle. But, even though I understood all that, my head still nodded. One thing seemed clear in her subtle words.
This love that holds Jun’s ankle needs to stop.
Similar words seemed to follow afterward. She spoke, and I listened. No, I heard, but I didn’t quite understand. Just like my blurry eyes, her words also gradually passed by my ears, becoming faint.
I don’t know if she wanted to confirm how strong the determination of someone who has already made up their mind is, but I silently listened to her quiet words that flowed like the sunlit day.
“I’m sorry. I’ve had a lot of thoughts even to say this. Of course, I leave all decisions to Haru. I just wanted to convey what I felt as someone who has been watching Director for a long time. Whatever choice you make, I will consider it as a result of Haru’s careful consideration for Director.”
Polite until the end, but the words hidden behind that politeness were subtly raising the tension. In the end, I opened my heavy lips.
“…Considering it as a result of careful consideration, that’s quite an elaborate explanation.”
Like a fool, my fierce gaze was colorless, and all the words I spat out were trembling thinly. Her forehead wrinkled and unfolded in an instant. Her hidden emotions, afraid of being exposed to me, made her expression clean and even more awkward.
“It wasn’t easy, sorry to say this. However, as someone who wanted to thoroughly persuade Haru, I also…”
“If that was your goal, you achieved it.”
“…What?”
“If you wanted to thoroughly persuade me. You wanted to say right now or whenever that I should break up with Jun. That was what you wanted to say, right?”
The voice that was trembling thinly was on the verge of crying in the last sentence. She couldn’t promptly continue speaking. She chose to take a breath. Yun, the secretary, filled the gap with a calm expression.
“I only wanted understanding. After fully understanding the situation, I hoped that Haru could make a choice for Director.”
My Step-brother Is Obsessed With Me (Female-dominant)
A gentle female protagonist vs pitiful in the early stage, and a sick male protagonist in the later stage
Cheng Songer transmigrated into the body of a vicious cannon fodder female supporting character with the same name as her in a female-dominant novel.
In the original story, the cannon fodder female supporting character was inhumane, committing domestic violence, gambling excessively, being lustful, and even wanting to sell her stepbrother to a brothel for money.
As luck would have it, she just happened to transmigrate at this time.
Seeing Cheng Qingzhi biting his lip, enduring the tears in his eyes, looking pitiful, her heart softened.
She stuffed the money back into the Madam’s hand and reached out to him.
“Brother, come home with me.”
